movement is an actionhere is for all of us...a journey we are called to where things become more uncertain before they become clear, where our need for faith in God increases with every step rather than diminishes...He will shake loose everything in which we place our trust outside of Him and teach us how to thrive in a future unknown. there is only One who is certain; everything else exists in the realm of uncertainty.
i'm so scared of the only life that intrigues me.
but longing and passion are slowly winning the battle.
and i'm soon to find...
life is so radically different this way.
if i would only choose to live.
if i would only....
die.
what would my life look like if every free moment was lived to God's glory?
if that 2:00 hour i had i spent in conversations with God's world of opportunities ever on my mind.
if i took up all my sorority sisters on their side-arm comments like "i miss you. we need to hang."
if i talked to people in class every once in a while.
if i spent my nights with those God's heart is breaking to save instead of constantly hanging with those He's already claimed.
how do i cross over? how do i make God's heart cries within me reality? i don't have to pray for Him to use me. i don't have to pray for a life of significance. with each day that passes and i have not moved, i choose my own destiny. i waste my life. i fail my heart. i am only hurting myself. the only way to live is to embrace the fear, the pain, the suffering of an uncertain life of faith. why am i so afraid to let go when it's all i can think about, when it's all i yearn for? why am i so afraid to let go? how can i move a heart that is human? how can i ask Him to change my will? i can only ask for God's power and Spirit to take me over, for Him to steal my life away. i don't want a choice anymore. i've made it. somehow force me to act on it. can i ask Him for that? why won't i move? how can i pull past this? i trust that a life of meaning is acting on all God's shown me - really, anything He's shown me. but how do i put words into action? heart isn't enough. passion isn't enough. faith isn't enough. i don't even know what to ask. i can't forever waste my life away knowing the only thing i have to do is move, but i will never be strong enough to move myself without Him.
I think it's time
To sober up and die
Now every little second is time
And every word seems to rhyme
I follow every word like streetlights
To make it home all right
Now every little second just flies
I hold on to them like paradise
I follow every word like streetlights
I want to fall in love and leave tonight
Been riding in the sunset
Ignoring what follows after beauty
Fades to black now
Just riding in the sunset
Now this paralyzing cold
Always comes crawling back
I think it's time
To sober up and live
Now every little second is time
And every word seems to rhyme
I follow every word like streetlights
To make it home all right
Now every little second just flies
I hold on to them like paradise
I follow every word like streetlights
I want to fall in love and leave tonight
my heart is plagued
by a life that lacks significance
by all i know my life could be
but isn't.
