warm weather inspiraton

i was thinking the other day about the idea of how we are vessels God uses - the closest thing to "Jesus in the flesh" here on earth, and i eventually found myself asking God (even though it is quite impossible) if i could be so tenacious in making myself available for His working and in my awareness of - and action on - all the possible opportunities He places around me that i begin to feel like i'm almost overwhelming Him with interactions and conversations through which He has to work because they compliment and fulfil His heart.

that just...ahhh!...overwhelms me with this...peaceful, summer-like joy that i can't explain.

what if i could be so engaged in Jesus' heart and so aware of all the possible opportunities before me that i begin to constantly impact the world in an eternally significant way - the conversations i have, the activities, situations...just...things i purposely plan and/or am involved in, the time and people i make myself available to and for?

the more i read about paul in the bible - his life, his ministries, his actions - i am convinced he must have either:

1) came to the same conclusion or
2) just naturally lived that way from the beginning because...that's just how you live for Christ. duh.

when i took that personality test thing at ldc, it said that ruth and paul where my bible personality-alikes. yay for me cause paul is definitely the person i look up to and strive to be most like when it comes to being Jesus to my world. he inspires me more than anyone else...
and books like irresistible revolution and chasing daylight just further this madness within me, i guess. haha. the more i see and hear about God intensely working through the lives of those who could care less about the things of this world (to an extent some would call extreme), the more my heart burns to live in such a way.

how stifling it is sometimes in college when it doesn't seem like you have any other choice but to get caught up in "resume-building" and status. i mean i'm not kidding, stifiling. it's so hard for me sometimes to find purpose in even being here to puruse a projected lifestyle that i don't desire. i could care less about what half these people care about, but you see...
i care about these people.
so i could never leave them any earlier, and...all of a sudden...i find myself "resting" - peacefully with big, soul-deep sighs - in the eternally significant opportunities i begin to notice and take hold of.

i guess this is what it means to find rest, peace, strength and confidence in your Savior...simultaneously.